You know, if it's not one thing, it's a million fucking other things and it's really starting to piss me off and frustrate me. aaahhhhhh!!!!

~Paige

Yea, it's been a while since I've posted anything so I finally figured that I would because so many things have just been running crazy through my mind that I finally just need to get it all out. Most of this probably won't make sense to a lot of people so you can just ignore this if you want to. Most of this is just going to be rambling off the next thing that I think of anyways. So too many things have been happening at once again and it kinda sucks. And with things that happened today I've just been wondering why can't things ever be easy? How am I supposed to tell them the truth? How am I supposed to tell them that I can't stay in this house anymore? How am I supposed to to that to them, tell them that this house at times has literally almost killed me and I honestly don't know if I could handle staying in this house any longer than I have to. And with everything that is happening and has happened before my heart just aches so much sometimes that it almost feels like it's bleeding. All I want sometimes is for the pain to go away, for something to just take it away because there are times when it even hurts to breathe. All I want is to be free but I don't know how to do that. I want so much to just let myself be who I am and be happy but I am so afraid of it. I just don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm just going in circles and it can be so frustrating.

Ok, perhaps enough rambling for one night. I'll try to post again sometime soon.

~Paige