So its been I don't know how long since I've actually posted anything on here but I don't know, for some reason I was in the mood to now. I don't really know what to say or if there really is anything much to say at all but I guess that really doesn't matter much. Probably not too many people will even see this, if any even do at all.

I've been in this kind of weird mood for the last week or so and I don't really know what it's all about. It's not like anything is really wrong. Everything is good, ok well almost everything is good. I've never had a time in my life when absolutely everything was good so I wouldn't really expect it to start being that way now. And I really am happy with my life and what it is. Honestly, for the most part I'm happier than I've ever been before in my life and happier than I ever thought would be possible, happier than I thought that I would ever let myself become. I guess I just feel like there's still something that I'm looking for but I have no idea what it is and there are times when I feel like I'll never know. It just gets frustrating sometimes thats all. And I guess that there are still times when I feel like I'm just waiting for something to come along and take everything away from me that makes me happy because it's happened to me too many times before in my life I guess for me not to expect it this time.

I think that I've just been thinking about things too much again.