I miss you and I love you.

Yay! I got a job as teller at M&T Bank, so I'm starting there Feb. 5th. I'm so excited. Well, I'm a little nervous too but mostly excited.

I wish that I knew how to feel or what to think or what to do, but I don't. I just wish that things would make sense.

I would call this an update but that would imply that there's something new going on or happening, but there's not. So I guess that you can just call this a mindless rambling session because I seem to be doing that a lot lately, mindlessly rambling. I miss having a life outside of work. I miss going out and doing things. And it's not really like I did all that much before but it was nice to know that I could if I wanted to. And I've just gotten to the point that I hate my job so much that I'm just miserable every day that I have to go into work and its just gets worse every day. So needless to say, I'm looking for another job. I applied for a job at the bank so I'm really hoping that it works out. Even if it doesn't, I still want to find something else because at this point anything would be better than what I'm doing now.
Let's see, what else can I ramble on about. I've been thinking in circles again about things lately and I thought that maybe if I just got them out it would help but at this point I can't even make coherent sense out of my thoughts anymore and its driving me nuts. I don't know anymore, about anything.

So I finally have something new to talk about rather than just the same old things that I always talk about. My news is that I'm going to be moving down to Florida in March when the lease on my apartment is up. I'm really excited about going but I'm a little scared too, but not enough to not make me not want to go. I can't wait to get out of Buffalo. It's not that I don't love everyone here, well almost everyone, it's just that I'm so tired of the same thing and this is a really good chance to start over. Plus the fact that I'll be living pretty much on the beach which just kicks ass because I love the beach. And I won't have to deal with the snow anymore because I'm really starting to hate the snow, a lot. The only thing that really sucks though is that winter break is going to be the last time that most people are going to be home from school again before I leave so that's the last time that I'm really going to get to see everyone before I leave. I mean I'll be back to visit as often as I can, it's just that I don't know when everyone else is going to be home. That's one of the only things that is really going to suck about leaving, is that I am really going to miss everyone. But at the same time I can't wait to go. Everyone should come down and visit me sometime after I move.

Ok, so I really meant more than once every six months when I said that I'd try to update more often from now on, so oops. This is the first time that I've actually had time to update and have actually had something to say. Ok, well I really don't have much new to say but that's beside the point. I just thought that it was about time to update to let everyone know, that yes, I am still here, I've just been hiding a lot. Not intentionally hiding, but hiding none the less. I really haven't had much of a life outside of work lately and it really sucks but when I say not much of a life, I mean pretty much none at all. I don't get the chance to really go out all that often anymore, so I just got to the point where I just really stopped trying and let me tell you, its been boring as hell sitting at home almost every night. I'm so sorry that I've lost touch with everyone and at this point I'm not really all that sure how to go about getting back in touch with everyone. I really do miss everyone.

So I finally decided that it's been way too long since I've actually updated this thing. Now the question is where do I start? I guess I'll just say whatever it is that comes to mind, not neccessarily in any particular order. Well first of all, I got a promotion at work, so now I'm managing my own store out in Lockport which is pretty cool. It's a lot more money than I was making before and a lot more work, but it's all worth it I guess. The only thing that sucks is that all I've been doing lately is work. It's hard to go out because I usually have to get up early for work the next day which means that I usually end up just sitting at home just about every night. It kinda sucks not being able to have much of a life outside of work but then again I didn't really have much of one before. I guess before it was just nice to have the option to go out if I had wanted to. Oh well, its really not that bad.
Let's see, what else. Oh yea, I'm going to be moving again in about a week or so. I was supposed to be moving out to the Lockport area but that kinda fell through so now I'm just moving down the street. The new place is as least twice the size of where I am now and only a little bit more in rent. It's gonna be great to finally have space to put all of our shit and to actually be able to have more than 4 people over at a time without it getting crowded.
Hmm, what's next. I have kittens now, four of them actually. Two boys and two girls. We've had the three of them for about 5 months now and we rescued the other one from outside a couple weeks ago. They're all just so cute! They can be quite a handful at times but I love them and I wouldn't get rid of them for anything. They've kept me company during a lot of those nights at home. That'll be another nice thing about the new apartment, we'll finally have enough room for all of the cats.
Well, that's really all that I can think of right now. I just got home from work a little while ago so needless to say I'm a little tired. Sorry that I don't update this thing more often. I'll try to from now on. I really hope that everyone is doing well and I miss everyone and can't wait to see all of you again. Bye!