Hey, it's me. So I finally have some time again to post. Now the question is, what do I say? Well, my life has been crazy as usual for the last couple of days. Between school and work, I barely ever have time to slow down and just do nothing. I'd like to be able to just do nothing for an entire day again sometime soon but who knows when that's going to happen. Most of the time I really don't mind working because it gets me out of the house but there's just times when it really freaking sucks. Like when you have to deal with stupid people, both that come into work and the ones that I have to work with. And the other day this guy that I absolutuely can not stand came into work and he was trying to hit on me and every other female in the store and he just doesn't get the hint that no one is interested. He's just one of those really dumb ass guys that just give other guys a really bad name. Sorry, enough with the rambling on about work. Onto other more random things. Oh, like all of the stuff that I've been having to do recently to start to get ready for graduation. Like today when I had to hand in the form for cap and gown and planning the graduation parties and everything like that. It's just weird to think about, that in less than 4 months I'm going to be done with high school. There's part of me that's really happy because I am so sick sometimes with dealing with all of this high school crap but then there's also this part of me that doesn't to leave because I'm kind of afraid to go out into the world and I'm going to miss everyone. I don't, I guess I'll just find ways to deal with everything as it comes along because that's what I've done with everything else so why should this be any different?

And this really has nothing to do with anything, but I've just been thinking about it, so I decided to just write it down to try to get it out of my head. It's just that I can really confuse the hell out of myself sometimes. I just think about things too much and I end up going in circles with things. I'm so glad that I have a chance to be happy but there's still this part of me that's kind of afraid to let myself be too happy because I've just seen too many things to not be somewhat afraid. I know that what happens with me has nothing to do with what I've seen but I still can't help being a little afraid. I don't even know if that makes sense. Somehow it does to me but it just seems like sometimes when I try to explain that to other people they just don't really understand it.

Ok, well I think that I'm done for today. I'll write again later. Bye!