I can't believe how much things changed with one phone call. In the back of my mind, I always knew that it was a possibility but now that it's actually happening, I don't know what to do. Where are things going to go from here? I don't want things to change between us, but I know that they are. How am I going to deal with this? Why are things never easy for me? Why is everything in my life so difficult and complicated? Why when I am so happy does this have to happen? I don't know anymore.
 
~Paige

I can't believe how happy I have become. I never thought that I could feel this way. I never thought that i deserved this, but i realize now that i do, no matter what anyone else might tell me. As happy as i am though, I in a way feel guilty for being this happy when i look around me and i see people that i care about so much aren't as happy as they deserve to be. I just want to help them to be happy but I don't know how to. But to the one person who will never read this because you don't know about this, thank you for everything, you have no idea what you have done for me and how much it means to me and how important you are to me.