Those people that say that time heals all wounds are such liars. Well, misleading anyways. Everyday the pain just gets worse, not better. The only thing that changes is that everyday I learn a little more either how to deal with the pain or just how to ignore it for a while. I don't think that this pain will ever go away. I know that's it's only been a week, but that doesn't matter, it still hurts and I don't think that it will ever go away. I wish it would though. I hate feeling like this. It's so frustrating hoping with everything that you have and that you are for something that you used to have but you know that you'll never get it back again. I just want things to make sense in my life for once. Things are never easy for me and I know that life isn't supposed to be easy but it doesn't have to be this hard, does it? I don't know, maybe this is just what my life is meant to be.

~Paige